May 2017 Recap

The truth, and nothing but the truth!

Let's begin with some numbers. They might tell you more than my
following whining words.



betfair NL10
betfair NL10 shot
Stars NL10
Pokerstars NL10 shot
Kings and Aces during the NL10 attempt
Winnings:                               -277.48$
Winnings EV Adjusted :                  -157.28$
Hands total:                              86,843
Winrate:                                  -4,45b/100 (NL5 only)
Winning Days:                              12    
Losing Days:                               17
Bankroll:                                152.63$
May taught me a lot of things. It taught me a better learn vs  
grind approach. It taught me mental toughness. (at least I hope
I will get out of it stronger) It taught me that things can always
get worse. And it taught me that even after millions of hands you 
can start doubting your fundamental thoughts about the game.

Before May I worked so much on my mental site. I thought
I could easily grind through every downswing since I have seen alot 
of stuff happening in this game already. I thought I am beyond 
the need of a Stop Loss.

But I was wrong. I can not beat the mental site at the moment, lots 
of work still needs to be done.

I am frustrated, angry, mad or even sad almost every single evening 
because of this card game.

I can confidently say that I played the best of my game at the
beginning of the month and just ran horrible. I tried to grind
through the Downswing with high volume, that it eventually would
end faster. I had 2 back to back -10 buyins days while still playing
decent poker.2

That changed towards the middle of May. I started playing worse 
and worse and got more frustrated every single day. 
It got to a point where I would just call a Nit's All-In with
a small pocket pair simply out of frustration.

At the end of the month I started playing good Poker again but still
nothing seemed to work. Frustration continued spreading (and still is)


Event Bankroll: 96.94$ (-142.31$)


Betfair bonus and rakeback: 21.80$

During May I cleared 2 parts of the my bonus for a total of 21.80$
As it seems there is no additional rakeback.
Not sure yet, my affiliation-partner will get the total result next


Pokerstars Cardmatch + The Deal: 17.87$

The Deal: AΒ good way to make some money
In "Cardmatch" I made 6.60$ during May and thanks to "The Deal"
I got another 11.27$ (I am not sure if I got a part of every jackpot
drawn, but I tried to be in as many as possible)


Tournaments: -211.88$

During May I finally had the pleasure to fullfill a yearlong dream.
I played Sunday Million! as the fat minus above shows I didn't cash it.
I ran QQ vs 88 in a 3-bet pot. I Potcontrolled and only lost 20 of my 
40 Big Blinds. Right the next hand I got dealt AJ vs the same player,
again 3bet (I was left of him) and got it in on J28 Flop. He showed J8
and the dream was over.

I also played Big 55 without any luck (stake of a friend, fortune cooky
made him do it! it said "everything you touch will be very profitable",
what a fkn trolling fortune cooky, seriously) one 27$ Scoop Tournament
and 5x 11$ Tournaments. (4 payed with Starcoins, one on bwin with a token 
I satelited in thanks to the Daily Click Card Promotion) 
Unfortunatelly I didn't cash one of them.

I still have a Rope-A-Dope Ticket and enough points to play two 11$
Tournaments on Pokerstars.
When I was frustrated and wanted to play another format for a day I 
invested 9$ into 180 man 1$ Buy-In SNG and won 12.12$ through them. 
(so 3.12$ profit)


888 Gold Tokens+ Vegas Roller+ Snap: 29.90$

I turned a few "Gold Tokens" into 5$ and cashed a Freeroll for 30c.
Because there was the Vegas Roller Promotion where you can
spin a wheel and if you are lucky (very very very lucky) you win a 
payed travel and a Buy-In to the World Series Of Poker (Main Event or
one side event possible). (my biggest dream) I tried my luck and
wanted to use the 5.30$ until it would be gone at Snap-Poker to get
a few additional Spins at the Vegas Roller to hopefully be lucky 
"One Time".
While I did not win my trip I grinded that money up to 29.90$.
At one Point I was up to exactly 55$, but I mistakenly had 888Poker
and Pokerstars open at the same time, so Pokerstars infected 888 with
the runbad! Legit story!


Next Event Bankroll event: Sunday Million Live at the King’s Casino

Pokerstars just announced the first Sunday Million as a live event at
the King's Casino in Rozvadov.
The day 1s' will played from August 24th to September 3rd. And on 
September 3rd will be the final, too (if you survive your day 1). 
So still plenty of time to collect the 220€ Buy-In in my Event-Bankroll!


Goals achieved that were set forΒ May

  • play 80k Hands (done)
  • Discuss more hands again (done)
  • Read 1 book (done, Hold’em Wisdom For All Players)
  • drop 7-10 kg weight including water! (done, dropped 7-8kg)
  • get back to working out and eating healthy (done, Back to the Anabolic Diet)


June Goals and Approach




New Learning Routine

During May I often times wanted to read a poker book before going to bed
or to watch a training video AFTER my grind-session. Often times that 
didn't happen. 
Not because I am to lazy or to tired. I simply had a bad session before 
and did not want to hear anything pokerrelated for the rest of the
day (which is OK since I would get even more frustrated, angry or sad).
So before I am going to start my first session of any day in June 
I will watch a training video! Than I have at least some educational 
work done and can happily focus on getting frustrated! (hopefully not)


Partypoker-Comeback after ~8 years


I finally have worked everything out with the Partypoker supportteam.
I can grind on Partypoker again and have a great Deal for additional
coaching hours (even tho I still have plenty left)


Get a database review of 40k hands

Since I have no trust in my game anymore right now I will get a 
complete Database review in June. I am going to grind 40k "fresh" 
hands (because I don't need to get a review of my tilting hands)
and will get detailed feedback of my leaks. I am only capable to a very 
small degree to do that on my own so I am very thankful for the 
Plus it will hopefully make me stay focused and grind a solid 40k 
hands without tilt.


Reintroducing Stop Loss

I wrote about it earlier this year but got rid of the idea because
I thought I don't need it anymore. Apparently I am not on the level
I thought I was. So for June I will set another Stop Loss.
2-Buyins down => break (gym, walk, movie)
2-Buyins down => day over


Other Goals for June

  • Play 60k hands (less than last month because of Stop Loss)
  • Finish 1 Book (probably FTP-Tips From The Pros)
  • keep reading “The Mental Game Of Poker”
  • drop 4-5 kg of mainly fat (will be hard to match but possible)
  • get to see the sun twice a week, tomorrow starts the summer you pleb
  • get my mindset up to something that is working somehow again (took a big hit as you might have noticed)


As I stated often times this year already. My Main Goal is to play NL25
(or at least be close to it) at the end of the year. If I will not achieve
this goal I will stop taking poker seriously and look for another hobby.
I don't like to spend money to get punshed in the face!

Also if I go broke (I never thought that's actually a possibility) I will
not readd any kind of money.

Thank you for reading. I hope I have better news for you in my June Recap.

6 thoughts on “May 2017 Recap

  1. Ah long time no read! πŸ˜€ Hope you are having better games in June. Finally we have somewhere to play in czech (only stars tho) so I can go at it again – should happen next week. πŸ™‚

    I see you are reading through mental game. That book really helped me and I will read through it again and probably again and again after πŸ™‚

    I really like your blog and hopefully it will go better in June. Fingers crossed. πŸ™‚

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  2. thank you very much πŸ™‚ yeah its a great read, hopefully i can finish it soon πŸ™‚
    thats nice, at least you can grind now! πŸ™‚


  3. Your results with Aa and Kk seems really odd. If you want, I can take a look at it and maybe point out something from my pov. I understand if dont want to do it though. πŸ™‚ How’s June treating you at the poker tables btw?


  4. i might have had some tiltmoves with aces and kings. but in genreal it was just runbad. i deleted the NL10 database right after my shot was missed because that eased my mind πŸ˜€ I only took the screenshots before for my recap. June doesnt treat me well eather so far. I am taking a few months off cashgames and play 1$ 180 man sngs (and other small tournaments). did not play many yet but and down a few buyins. don’t want to spoiler june recap to much πŸ˜€


  5. Ah sure, I will wait for recap to see more. πŸ™‚ Hopefully second half of June will be better for you. Im looking forward to recap. πŸ™‚


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